Quitting Smoking

so today i have decided to quit smoking i haven't had a smoke since 8:00am this morning, i must admit it is very hard especially with being alone with both the kids driving me a little bonkers lol but i know if i try really hard i can do it.
So yesterday both the kids had an accident i got a phone call form Michael's school around 2:00pm saying i had to come get him because he had split his chin open on the playground so i went took a look and ya he hurt it but nothing major, he got very upset and wanted to stay at school so i let him. I picked him up at 3:00pm and he was doing better we got home and about a half hour later i hear Melody crying upstairs so i went up and all i saw was blood all over her face i had no idea where it was coming from or what had happened, it turned out to be her lip, it was cut, Michael got mad at her and decided to throw a dinky car at her face and it cut her, omg what could happen next, nothing else did happen but thank god i didn't pick yesterday to quit smoking because i would have failed miserably, but on a positive note the kids are just fine today gotta love them though. well that's all for now i will ttyl have a good night.

OH by the way my quit smoking ticker is at the bottom it shows you how long it has been how many smokes i have not had, and how much money i saved it is a pretty cool thing take a look :)



Love ya babe xoxox

HAHA taking pics of yourself is hard work lmao

hey all,

sooo... hmmm nothing really new in the last few days, i fell down the stairs holding Melody but somehow didn't drop her i got pretty banged up a few bruses nothing horrible, lol i am just a clutz i am just waiting for the day that i break my toe because everytime when jeff goes away i break a toe haha. The kids are doing great we had an incident with our lovely neighbours the other day that made Michael very sad but i don't want to get into it anyone who knows me and talk to me knows what i am talking about GRRRRRRR but anyway i took a few pics of myself tonight for jeff HAHAHAHAH wow it is really hard taking a good pic of yourself while holdiong the camera i will add one on here don't laugh i was trying to be sexy hehe hope you like it babe!! well not much else to say maybe i will have more tommorow have a good night. Stay safe hun i miss you and i love you :) xoxox

pics for my hunny

Jeff asked me to post some pics so here you go hun, not the greatest since it is hard to take pics of yourself lol :) i will add more later

Much better day :)

Today is such a better day to be alive lol i really felt like i was dying yesterday, thank got it was only a 24 hour bug because i don't think i could have lasted another day lol.
The kids kept me busy all day my dear daughter decided that she would rip her baby book apart today that mad me sad and angry and now i have to re-do some of the pages that i spent hour and hours on it is scrap booking anyone who scrap books can relate and it's not cheap!! but my friend Katie decided to bring her kids over in the afternoon thank god for the both of us we needed a break so the kids played for an hour or so it was nice to just hang out again with an adult and have the kids play even though they make a mess it is still nice to just sit and relax instead of running after them all the time yay for Katie and her kids :) but other than that we had a normal day we sat around in our pj's for most of the day and ten watched movies and played a normal day in my house is just not normal without fighting and or destroying mommy's stuff lol i am almost getting used to it, my son went through the same thing when he was 2 forgot how it was like till now oh well what can you do?
well anyway i am going to bed i have had a long day and tomorrow i get to go look at more embroideries for Melody's cloth diapers shhhh don't tell Jeff hehe they are so cute though i can't help myself. Have a good night all

The stomach flu SUCKS!

6:45am this morning i woke up because my daughter wanted breakfast, i rolled out of bed and it just hit me like a ton of bricks... I had the stomach flu again!!! i had already dealt with this over new years and i thought i was going to die. Now try having the stomach flu making many many trips to the bathroom an hour while taking care of a 2 and a 5 year old OMG not fun at all, even now i am still not feeling too great, i was just lucky that the kids had an R&R this afternoon for 3 hours, so i slept the whole time, ginger ale has become my friend lol i am just hoping now that the kids don't give me a hard time tonight after i put them to bed because i have no energy at all i haven't eaten anything today!! so i am going to make this post short i need to go lay down i hope that tomorrow i feel better. Good night

Woo Hoo for food !!

wow i actually have food in my house, it is so nice to open up the cupboard and see FOOD!!! i felt like old mother Hubbard, but not anymore :)

So anyway... I missed Jeff's call and him on msn today which really sucks, i hate it when i miss talking to him, because when we do talk we don't get to talk for very long max 15 min and then i don't know the next time i will be able to talk to him, and that sucks. I would have to say that is one of the hardest things i have had to deal with since he left is the waiting, i wait for him to call i wait for him to e-mail me, i wait for him to come home, i wait for him to leave again etc.... you get the point, being a military wife is all about waiting, sometimes it's not a bad thing but it is still hard no matter what especially since i am a very impatient person to begin with, so i don't do so well with waiting, and right now i am waiting for him to come online so i ca talk to him for another 5-10 min before he has to go to work, oh the joys. I am mailing him his first package this week i am excited i hope he likes what i am sending him, although i am not sending him too much right now number 1 he didn't really tell me a whole lot of what he wanted or needed and number 2 i don't want to run out of ideas too soon it has only been 1 week and 6 days.

I spent all afternoon out today with a friend of mine and her 2 little ones it was extremely cold i can't even describe how cold it was, we did our grocery shopping today and ran other errands, by the time i got home it was already 5:30 and the kids were hungry and tired and Mel's bum really needed a change, but it was nice to just get out of the house for a few hours, i even rented the kids a movie and they watched that while i put away everything, now they are in bed and it is mommy time :) YAY so i think i am going to go and enjoy my mommy time until next time, have a good night :)

Happy Valentines Day

Good morning everyone,

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY :)

I hate having valentines day alone it sucks for sure. But i did wake up to Michael wishing me a happy valentines day and Jeff wrote me an e-mail wishing me the same, i hope i hear from him today i have been missing him on msn every time he comes on i am away from the computer so that has bummed me out lately. but anyway Melody is in such a bad mood today because she was up most of the night last night so that is all i have to say for now she is sitting beside me on the floor yelling at me up up up lol hope you all have a happy valentines day, I'm sure it will be better than mine :)

It's days like today....

That make me really miss my husband.
The day started off OK early morning because Michael has school today, so we got up cleaned our rooms brushed our teeth got dressed and went down stairs to find cat puke all over my living room carpet!!! I love my cat but omg i could have killed them, so whatever i cleaned it up and then got the kids their breakfast and then the fighting started again Mel was trying to eat Michael's food and he was yelling this is only 7:30am.
Finally got the kids bundled up and walked Michael to school, it is only maybe a 10 min walk if that but on freezing cold morning like today it feels like it takes hours, and by the time you get home you can't feel your face or legs. Melody then decided she wanted to play outside when we got home so i spent another half hour outside freezing some more.
To top this wonderful morning off Melody is in such a grump she actually ran away from me and tried to hide when i went to put her in a time out. I am just getting do frustrated with the kids and all the fighting and destroying things i just don't know what else i can do.

Well i guess that is enough ranting for now i am sure i will have more later, and Hun if you are reading this i love you and i really really miss you!!

De-cluttering sucks lol

Feb 11/2007

Soooo.. it is already Sunday night YAY Michael has school tomorrow so it will be a nice little break even though i have Melly. During the weekend i decided to clean out my bed room and DE-clutter my closet, you couldn't even open the door without stuff falling all over you it was crazy i took out 4 large garbage bags full of clothes don't fit me anymore so i decided i was going to donate them to the salvation army, and then i decided to move 2 big dressers into my basement hehe so i called a friend of mine to help me out, thank god for having strong guy friends and it only took us maybe 10 min to do it, no problem at all. Thanks Malcolm :)

oh i have included a pic of my daughters room with all the foam everywhere here it is i hope you all have a nice laugh at my expense, it was not fun cleaning up i still find some every now and then clinging to my cats lmao.

Jeff was able to call me yesterday and i spoke with him on messenger this morning as nice as it is to hear from him it is also annoying i always have so much to say but not enough time to say it, and in case you don't know with them being so far away there is always a pause between what you say and what he says so we are always cutting each other off it is frustrating, but it is nice to be able to hear from him, i am lucky because he is in the camp and lots of guys outside of the camp don't get to talk to their families that often because there is only one phone or no phone at all. But he is doing well he asked me to send him air freshener he said that he lives with many stinky men haha.

Anywho i guess that's all i have to say for now, anyone know how much kids are going for on the black market?? kidding kind of lol i am the greatest mother ever!!!

Have a good night

Tiff

Happy Birthday Baby Girl

Today is my daughters 2nd birthday, it is such a bitter sweet day, i am so happy that she is growing up into a wonderful little girl, even though it makes me sad every year that my kids get older i can't belive that she is already 2 years old. The bitter part of today is that my husband is missing her second birthday, not only did he miss her birth because he was away on a DART mission now he is missing her second birthday, somedays are harder than others to deal with and to be understanding about his job, but at the same time i know it's not his fault that he is away, but it still is hard. Speaking of my husband i was finally able to talk to him on the phone this morning he called to wish my daughter a happy birthday it was so nice to hear his voice and i wanted to cry so bad but i kept myself together for him and the kids i will prob have a nice cry tonight.
My mother is taking me out to coffee tommorow morning and i am putting my daughter in child care for an hour and my son has school so it will be nice to have a bit of a break from the kids, they have been pushing my buttons latley and i am starting to lose my temper with them; common nice weather at least if it were nice out i could bring them outside to wear themselves out and then the couldn't destroy my house like they have been especally my daughter. I have actually had to put myself in a time out in the bathroom and lock the door just so i could have 5 min to myself. Well enough ranting i should get going my daughter is destroying my room i hope you all have having a better day then me :)
Tiff

The Spongebob incident

Wednesday Feb 7th/2007
So i didn't end up hearing from Jeff last night, i understand that he is very busy over there but it still makes me sad when i don't hear from him. I really need to hire a supper nanny or something lol my kids have turned into total brats since my husband left, they are always fighting and getting into trouble i only have so much patience for them, my son had a huge sponge bob that he won at a fair and my lovely daughter decided to rip the leg off it and the little foam balls are all over my upstairs even one of my cats was covered in it. Last night was no fun either my daughter decided to wake up 3 or 4 times in the middle of the night freaking out she even woke up my son and then this morning my son said that he is not feeling good so i kept him out of school but even with him " not feeling good" they are still fighting. I don't spank my kids and time outs are just not working it is driving me crazy i have been smoking more and more every day because i am so stressed out, and my husband has only been gone now for 5 days i think i am going to lose my mind by the time this tour is over!!!! grrrr well i am off to clean up the mess the kids made.

My first blog

Today is Feb/6/2007 and my husband has been gone now for 4 days, i finally got an e-mail from him this morning and then later was able to talk for 15 min on msn. I must admit this is very different. We have been together now for almost 4 years and we have been married for almost 3, we have 2 wonderful and energetic children ages 2 and 5 who keep me busy on a regular basis and that keeps my mind off of the fact that my husband is gone for 6 months to a country where there is a war going on.
I don't really know what else to say right now because it is just the beggining of the tour but i will keep you all updated as the days and the months go by and i will post pics whenever i can.

Thanks